what is the value of writing when I am still raw? I thought I had finally caught the golden ring and when I looked in my hand there was nothing. Only my own illusions and the story I made myself believe. Do you do that? Do you think you are in a relationship or a partnership only to find out it was only real for you. I tell my patients over and over...suffering is caused when your illusions hit on reality and something has to give.

I often describe myself as a dork and you were looking for proof I could have a sizeable bundl

not for the first time in my life

I don't think that I am so very different from most people in what I want and what I go for. I think I am different in that I have no shame about admitting it out loud. I want to be loved. Very much. I want to be known. And I want someone who doesn't want me to change...I want someone who sees me and thinks...I want THAT in my life.

Truth be told...I thought I had found it. Turns out I was the only one in that party. Can you believe it? Think of a tired, trite, banal cliche.....Yep...I fell for them. I thought that all the thing I was hearing